Do you know what happens when your life seems out of place and your brain feels like it’s spiraling out of control? You find something that could drown out the thoughts. You look for distractions. That’s what I’ve been doing lately. Finding some kind of distraction from my mundane life right now. People have different types of coping mechanisms to escape their reality. These are mine.

I have been rewatching the Scream franchise. Considering that these movies are far from relaxing, it’s very contradictory that the franchise somehow calms my brain and helps me focus. And I am all for it. My brain has always been like this. I need to have something in the background. And not just whatever. It needs to be something specific. Right now, apparently, my brain only accepts the Scream movies. I tried other movies, some TV shows, and even YouTube videos. My brain just says “Put the goddamn Scream movies on!”

I also find myself devouring some books. I just finished a series and just started reading a new one. And no, it’s not the reading that I’m using as a coping mechanism here. It’s the material or genre of what I’m consuming that keeps me out of my reality. Let’s just say that if I pick a genre like this, know full well that I’m having some kind of internal crisis. I am not complaining. Far from it, I take all the reading that I can get. I just understand that when I’m reading books in this genre is my way of escaping my own brain.

And now I find myself getting distracted by mobile games. I’ve been downloading new games on a daily basis. I play the new game a couple of times and then I uninstall it. Of course, there are maybe one or two games that I would like and I would play that for a while. Right now, I am addicted to Jewel Sliding. I find myself obsessed with beating my best score. And honestly, that is all I wanted in a mobile game. It’s a puzzle and the only competition I have is myself.

These are not bad things. I just finally realized that these things are prominently featured in my daily life when I’m in a restless head space. Especially these past few weeks. My time has been consumed with reading and playing mobile games. I would do anything to distract me from whatever it is that life throws at me every day.