Nothing here but my musings about daily life, books, anime, and food.
Ah. We have come to the end of Sunday once again. Great. And you already know how I feel about that. Today was somewhat productive. I did what I had scheduled to do chores-wise. So I am happy about that.
I also finished reading How to Marry Keanu Reeves in 90 days b K.M. Jackson. I found it enjoyable. There were cameos of celebrities along the journey/adventure of finding The One, Keanu. Not surprising. It was refreshing to read a romance novel about people around my age. Although, I wished that the inner monologues of the two protagonists read more on the mature end. Regardless of their age, I felt like I was reading characters in their early twenties. However, this did not hinder my enjoyment of the book and the romance. I just end up being reminded that the characters were in fact older than I am. I did prefer the male love interest’s perspective compared to his counterpart despite the fact that this book mainly focused on her perspective.
What did I eat today? Spam and rice. Well white rice with a little bit of rice vinegar, topped with furikake and egg yolk. It was very tasty. And I loved it. Yeah, I ate that for both lunch and dinner. It was very satisfying. Well, spam and rice always hit the spot but adding those toppings on the rice…Yum! Chef’s kiss.
I got to hang out with my love again today. We watched the same shows as yesterday – House MD, KenIchi, and Rosario+Vampire. My hun kept on saying panties when they are shown in Rosario+Vampire. The fan service on that anime I swear. All good though, not as bad as some animes that we watched.
We also ended up watching a movie – The Devil Wears Prada. I’m so proud of my hun actually watching it with me. Honestly, he could have said no. I remember watching that movie (and also reading the book) a long time ago and enjoying it. Well, to say that I may have different opinions now is an understatement. I might consider re-reading the book and also read the sequel. I mean I still could not believe that I missed so many red flags.
Well, tomorrow is Monday again. And I hate it. I’ll be reading tonight before I sleep. My next reads are A Dirty Job by Christopher Moore and Know My Name by Chanel Miller. The latter book is a memoir, which I feel like in a mood for.
After a few years, I watched a movie in a theater for the first time. If I recall correctly, the last time I was in a movie theater was when “It Chapter Two” came out. So it has been a while. That was pre-pandemic I believe. I mean granted that I am not the type of person to watch a movie regularly in theaters, but once in a while I’ve been known to willingly go out and watch a movie. Let’s just say that I’m only very picky with movies.
I watched “Everything Everywhere All at Once” with a friend. That movie was actually pretty good. To say that I am surprised was an understatement. It’s definitely a very niche movie and if you don’t like science fiction then this movie is not for you. The movie is mainly science fiction, fantasy, and action, sprinkled with dark humor and drama. CHEF’S KISS. It made me laugh, it made me cringe, it made me cry. Yeah. I think all the elements of the movie were executed amazingly.
Before the movie, since we were early, we decided to check out the mall. And for a dying culture, the mall was still pretty crowded. Also, it felt like there was no pandemic with how much people got together. There was an event earlier today and a huge crowd of people (adults and kids) were congregated in a certain part of the mall. I mean I have thoughts on that but at this point, it’s up to the people now on how to properly protect themselves against covid. We were given the tools, and it’s up to us to utilize them.
My date night with hun started a bit later today. I got home late from the movie. But we ended up watching a couple of episodes of House, two episodes of KenIchi, and an episode of Rosario+Vampire. I mean granted it was a bit short than I would have preferred. But I’ll take what I can get, I mean I did have some prior engagements today. Hopefully, we get to hang out more tomorrow.
You know, I am not the most sociable person. I am not very open, I’m not approachable. I am friendly, but only to a point. I can be engaged in a conversation, but once the exchanges get too long, I get tired and I retreat. I put on my headphones and just close off the world. I guess my friendliness to people tends to be superficial. I’m guarded as a person, and I’m very picky about who I call friends.
The thing that I find really tiring is the fact that I have to pretend to be sociable. Being in a leadership position, I need to be. And it sucks. The moment I leave the lab, the moment I hear the door closed behind me, my mask falls off. That is one of my favorite things that happens every day. When I can just be myself; when I do not have to pretend anymore.
I guess I am missing my alone time. When I was younger, I can be alone and I would be okay. But I feel like wanting to be alone and quiet now that I am an adult, someone will always make it a point to psychoanalyze me. Unfortunately, this was a lesson learned. I just could not fathom why it was such a big deal that I wanted to eat alone in my car. Or be quiet. Apparently, my not wanting to interact meant that there was something wrong. That was the last time I did not wear my extrovert mask in public.
Why am I rambling about this?
Because it is detrimental to my mental health having to pretend every day. There is a reason why I love the weekends. Because I am just at home and I can be a loner as much as I want. I can be quiet. I can get lost in my head. I can just be me. And after years of perfecting this mask, I feel like I am losing myself more and more.
Well, this post turned personal really quickly. I did not mean to. I just did not feel like rehashing my day when all that really happens are forced interactions.
I feel off today. Not that I’m feeling antisocial or anything but I just want the office to not be so crowded. But that’s the thing, the office will never be not crowded anymore. Why? They hired two more lab people and of course they will be onsite as well… So yeah, boo.
Anyway, there really is nothing new happening with me. Just the same thing. I’ve been getting obsessed watching daily journaling videos again. I am that type of person who tends to cycle through my interests. Before this, I was obsessed with watching commentary videos. And since I’ve been trying to get back into bullet journaling, I’ve been consuming a lot of these planning videos. I’ve also been thinking of having a reading journal. But that one I don’t know yet. Because when I start posting book reviews here, I know I won’t be able to post spoilers. At least with a reading journal, I can write whatever since the journal is just for me. And you know, maybe if my hun wants to read it, for him as well.
Anyway, I have no plans today. Hun is doing a double shift today. So, I’m just going to read after this.
I often get tired of daily huddles. First, and this may sound selfish, but I really couldn’t care less about other teams’ KPIs. All this information can be done via email. I DO NOT CARE. Second, the person leading the huddle always asks how is everybody doing? We’re at work, what do you think? We’re in this huddle saying the same thing, over and over. Yeah. Again, what do you think? I swear, I’ve been tempted a few times to say, “Same shit, different day”.
Work today was meh. But then again, work is always meh for me.
I came home and I just wanted to hang out with my hun. Good thing that he wanted to hang out as well. Usually, Mondays are for the boys. But today, I guess he was not having fun playing video games. I was more than happy to hang out with him when he suggested watching some episodes of House.
The season 2 finale of House was trippy. I was so confused – with his hallucinations, and with him trying to figure out what was real and not. It was a good episode. Also for some reason, Amazon Prime decided to play Episode 1 of season 3 instead of auto playing the finale of season 2…We were so confused and lost. Both of us were like “What? Are we missing something?”
We also watched an episode of Rosario + Vampire. We are enjoying it, my hun is enjoying the minimal fan service. We both have issues with an 11-year-old character being sexualized. And no, that character is not a Loli. I’m sorry. That character is a literal kid. She is an 11-year-old witch who skipped grade levels to be in high school. There is no reason for anyone to sexualize that character.
At least tomorrow is already Wednesday. My hun is doing a double shift. I really need to put studying Python back on my schedule. I really need to get a move on.
It’s really nice to sleep in on a Monday. We really need to have more three day weekends…OR you know, just make it a fucking four-day work week! I don’t get it. I mean personally I prefer a shorter work week. Knowing that I’m only working four days this week is awesome. I don’t dread it too much.
Aside from the usual chores, it’s trash day today. So I did that. And the rest of day was pretty much spent watching House and anime with my love.
So in every show or anime, I tend to not like one character. Decisions might annoy me, but there is always that one character that I cannot stand. House MD of course has one character that I cannot stand…Cameron. Her complaints on the episodes that we watched today annoyed the shit out of me.
We finished Battle in 5 seconds after Meeting. This is an anomaly for me. I didn’t outwardly hate any character on this anime. I really did enjoy it and I’m annoyed that the second season is still not out and no confirmed date of release yet. I think Akira Shironayagi is a very intriguing protagonist. And he kept me watching the show. I am not one to be impressed by pure strength, Akira has brains and he thinks first before making a move. Sure, he is manipulative but with a survival of the fittest kind of game, you need to strategic and let emotions be on the sidelines. My hun thought I would not like Rin Kashii. I think I surprised him when I said that I’m also intrigued by her. Same with Kuroiwa, I preferred him more that his brother for sure. Hands down.I’m also intrigued with the Blue Team’s leader, Iori.
We also watched some episodes of Rosario Vampire. Yes the fan service was definitely present in this anime, it’s still not as bad as some other ones. I remembered enjoying this anime a while back so I would like to see what my hun thinks about it.
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