I really have nothing to say…All I know is that I feel tired. And I want to curl in bed. But that will not happen since I still have some stuff I need to finish doing. Like, you know, finish cooking? I am making chicken curry and it’s currently simmering, so I can’t pass out in bed until that is done.

Work was sort of busy. Hopefully, it won’t be too bad tomorrow sample number-wise. We had a lot today and with more than half the team out, the push to finish samples was a bit slower. The only lucky thing was the fact that I didn’t really have any meetings today. The one meeting I had was rescheduled for Friday. So my Friday calendar was a bit full of meetings.

I finished the Jeffrey Epstein: Filthy Rich documentary. And I was right, I got annoyed and very much triggered by what happened to these women – girls at the time of the incidents. Not to mention the special treatments this guy got when he was in “jail”. And yes, quotation marks are needed. Because he was never really in jail now was he? 

I wasn’t able to read last night. Not sure what really happened, but I passed out. I mean that is nothing new really. But I wasn’t expecting to pass out. I remember having my phone on because I was watching YT videos and then I woke up this morning with my phone drained of battery. I’m pretty you can guess that I overslept and had to rush getting ready this morning since my alarms didn’t go off. 

I was having an allergic reaction before I left work this afternoon. My left arm and left hand were itchy. My back, my neck, and my stomach were itchy as well. I had to take two Zertecs. Not sure what triggered it but it did and it was horrible.

I am currently watching You’ve Got Mail. Surprise! Well, technically it was already on my browser and I just decided to play it. This movie just makes me feel better! Don’t judge me for how much I overplay this movie.

I am hoping I get to read tonight. I am torn between wanting to stay up to read and wanting to not do anything. That is the dilemma as of right now.

Last night was rough. Fireworks. I was never a fan of fireworks even more now since I have pets. The dogs get scared when they hear fireworks. And that is what I was expecting to happen last night. I was ready to comfort Paco, our over-anxious dog. I was expecting a lot of shaking. But that did not happen. Our Paco turned into a protector. When the fireworks started, he became alert. Looking everywhere, trying to figure out where the loud sound was coming from. He decided that he would be lying on top of me. Not moving but very alert. Then he proceeded to run to the bedroom to check on my friend, his other mom. He stayed there for a bit and then came back running and again lay on top of me. Alert. That went on for hours. From my calculation until almost midnight. 

To say that I didn’t really get much sleep was a huge understatement. I pretty much had interrupted sleep. And woke up fully at 5 this morning. Too early for my liking. I was dragging the whole day at work. It was fine. Nothing new on that end. I didn’t end up going to my early morning meeting. Because I just didn’t feel like it. Horrible, I know. But I was just so tired of that meeting to be honest.

I just finished watching the documentary Keep Sweet Pray and Obey. This documentary was definitely about the rise and fall of Warren Jeffs. I am not one to judge religion. We are entitled to our own beliefs. However, I am against treating girls, women, females as second class citizens. And the more I get invested in this documentary, the more I feel sick to stomach. I was nauseated. What these females had gone through, I cannot. I just cannot fathom the fact that this exist. I commend the females, people who were actually brave enough to leave the compounds and start fresh. 

I am now jumping to the documentary about Jeffrey Epstein: Filthy Rich. Because apparently I am not annoyed enough right now. I am however planning on reading more of Lamb tonight. I just want to see an episode of this documentary then I am most likely moving on to reading. I do need to give my brain a break from these horrible people you know.

I didn’t get to hang out with my love tonight. He was hanging out with his friends and playing video games. He was doing his own thing so I decided to do my own thing as well. And that was chores, cooking dinner, and just watching documentaries that would definitely annoy me apparently.

Today was rough. I woke up late again. What can I say? My bed was really comfortable and I would always choose to stay in bed over doing anything else. On top of that, I woke up very irritable. I was getting very irritated over the littlest things. My low back was hurting, and my left leg was aching. Yeah, I was in a mood and my bed was my only refuge.

I was supposed to hang out with my hun today but it was my turn to take a raincheck. I miss him for sure but I was in such a funk. I really did not want to subject him to my irritability today. It was worse than usual. 

After throwing the trash this morning, all I did was lie in bed and read. I am now currently on the third part of the book, with about 130+ pages left before I’m done with the book. I find my limit with reading for sure. I need to take a break from reading about every two hours. By break, I mean do something else. I will read again once I post this. 

I did journal a little bit today, which was good. I really do need to do that more often. Every single day to be honest. I often say that journaling is therapeutic and it is. I often advise people to keep one. And I need to follow that advice myself. I used to journal often before. So I need to pick up that habit again. 

Same as yesterday, I do not feel like recounting my moments at work again today. It was the same old thing. Meetings and samples. And audits. So exactly – same BS.

Chris and I found a good Thai food restaurant close to where we work. And it was some good food. We wanted to try that place for a while now but for some reason when we try to go there it’s always closed. So when we saw that it was today for lunch, we grabbed the chance. And it was worth it.

I am drinking coffee right now. I am also doing laundry. I have every plan to read tonight and make a dent on A Dirty Job. I would have loved to hang out with my hun but he is working today – a double shift I might add. So tonight is me time. And I just want to relax and do some chores so I would not have to do a lot of chores over the weekend. Just cooking and the regular washing of the dishes. 

I am also having some romcoms play in the background. Cause you know, why not?

Tomorrow’s plan? Hang out with my love. We are planning on playing some video games – maybe some It Takes Two or some Stardew Valley. Maybe watch some House episodes and some anime. We’ll see. But definitely playing some video games.