This is nothing new but I’m really not a fan of summers. I know a lot of people do enjoy the sun. I am just not one of them. When it’s sunny, people tend to go outside, maybe go to the beach, go for a walk, you know outside activities. I tend not to do that. I am a homebody so regardless of the weather, I would always choose to be in the apartment. However, I am more inclined to venture out when it’s cloudy and if it’s a bit on the chilly end of the weather. And today is another hot sunny weather. This is what the people where I’m at call nice weather. While all you can hear from me is “uggghhhh”. However, I did sit under the sun with Paco since he loves sunbathing. He was under the sun, while I was under the shade.

I am dreading this coming Thursday. I do not want to leave the apartment. But alas, I have no choice. I need to move my car somewhere else for about 8 hours because the management is doing tree maintenance on the complex. Anyway, I am thinking of just chilling in the library. However, the library does not open until 10 AM. So I would need to figure out where to go before then. We’ll see. I have to figure it out. I would have 2 hours to kill before going to the library.

No big plans today. Maybe read? Who knows. Lately, I’ve just been winging my reading, to be honest. I know, I have no discipline when it comes to this one. Same with studying. I have no discipline on that as well. I mean, these two are blocked in my calendar on a daily basis. I just never follow them. l have been in an unfocused state of mind as of late. And since these two things require focus, I often find myself having issues.

Yesterday was one of the worse nights for me. I had another sleepless night. I didn’t really feel sleepy until 6 AM today. It was bad. I was tossing and turning in bed. It was a bit hot for me last night. Paco did not help in that department at all, since his temp runs hot. We call him a personal heater for a reason. With that, my anxiety was pretty heightened. I had itchy welts all over my body. It was not a fun night for sure.

So what did I end up doing? I read. And finished a novel. Granted it was only a 300-something-page novel, but it was still reading. The novel was a reread for me, and it was one of my favorite M/M romances. I tend to reread favorites when I’m feeling a bit off. Because I need something to pick up my mood. Or to thoroughly distract me. And Rocket Science definitely did that splendidly.

Since I did not really get rest, today sucked for me. I found myself yawning constantly and I felt sick. Congested and with a headache. This normally happens when I did not get enough sleep. I did manage to nap for a couple of hours this morning. But other than that, I was mainly confined to my chair and resigned myself to being tired and irritable the whole day.

No big plans tonight. Honestly, I just want to sleep. We shall see though. But I am thinking that I would just pass out once my head hits the pillow. I’m that tired.

My goodness, I had issues moving around today. The soreness I got from the workout yesterday was no joke. Just standing up from a sitting position was difficult. Anyway, my man and I got to hang out today. I don’t want to risk sounding like a clingy person, but damn, almost 2 weeks of not hanging out in a long-distance relationship felt too long. Anyway, we got to watch some anime today.

Bungo Stray Dogs. The Dazai and Chuya partnership there was pretty awesome. I would like to see them together more. And no, that is not the fujoshi in me talking. I think they balance each other pretty well. Also, Chuya’s Corruption was pretty visually stunning, oh and well, it’s pretty powerful. However, for Chuya to use that power, he should put his absolute trust in Dazai to null that ability. Also, the banter between these two was just so natural.

Parasyte. I am still not a fan of Murano. Well, you know what, I just don’t like her. A character who is not needed.

Naruto. I really do love seeing Naruto learn new things, you see the dedication. Every time he reaches a goal, I cannot help but cheer along with him. I did tear up a little bit when Jiraiya shared a popsicle with him like that father and son at the market.

No big plans tonight. I might play Sims 4. Because that is what I’ve been doing at night these past few days.

Did not really do anything. Just like a regular day for us. I mean sure, we had bbq ribs and mashed potatoes for dinner. But that was the extent of this day for us. A lot of lounging and watching YouTube videos. Because it was just too freaking hot to move. I really did not understand how my neighbors were able to sit outside on the balcony all day.

Chris and I watched Being John Malkovich (1999). Well, this was a fun trip. There were definitely some cringy moments, but John Cusack and John Malkovich were outstanding in this. Actually, all of them did.

No big plans tonight. Just sit in front of the fan. Because I don’t particularly appreciate sweating and yet here I am. Sweating while not doing anything. I hate it.

I am not feeling too good. Not sick. Just meh. What I have been doing in the last few days? Either consuming YT videos, binging on movies, or just vegging in bed. Yeah. Very unproductive. I am not proud of it. My boyfriend and I were not able to hang out over the weekend. We were both not feeling well.

I did watch a movie on Saturday, A League of Their Own (1992). And my first question to Chris was, how long was the female baseball league active? At the beginning of this movie, there was a scene where older women were complaining about the diminishing gender roles when the women’s league was created. And I still cannot believe that there are still some people complaining about the same thing today. Yeah. Anyway, this movie was a lot of fun. Loved to see some women play sports. And now I want to read some books about this. I really should check my library for something.

I’ve also been stuck watching Daria. I cannot remember how much I’ve rewatched this show. But from time to time I find myself gravitating towards this show. Like how I normally would rewatch Gilmore Girls.

Regardless of how unproductive I felt today, I did work out and you know what, I would consider that as a win. My arms are definitely feeling tired right now. More on the shoulders than he arms themselves. And that is why I know that my shoulder muscles need more work.

Planning on reading today. I have been reading a lot of webtoons. Which is fine. But I have not been able to sit and just read a book. Honestly, I just really need to continue on with Heaven Official’s Blessing. No point in taking a break and trying to pick up another book if my interest lies in Xie Lian and Hua Cheng’s story.

Chris and I had some movie nights this week. We watched a total of 4 movies. I also finished watching a Thai BL series yesterday. You know, when my brain refuses to work with me, I end up binge-watching something. This time, it was a Thai BL series called Love in the Air.

Love in the Air. This was divided into two storylines. Some events between the two couples overlapped with each other. The first couple is Rain and Phayu. The second couple is Sky and Prapai. Rain and Sky are best friends and both are freshmen in college studying architecture. Phayu and Prapai are also friends. Both are into motorbike racing. Phayu is the only mechanic allowed by the boss of these racing events to work onsite during events. He owns a mechanic shop with his brother. And he is also an architect. Paprai is a rich kid, working at the family business. He is the top motorbike racer in these events. Anyway, I enjoyed the series immensely. A lot of cute moments, there were cringe, but there were some dark turns as well. And this series was based on two books, Love Rain and Love Sky. I’m pretty sure you can guess what I did after I finished the show.

Kung Fu Hustle (2004). I am not sure if I watched this movie before. All I know is that some characters and scenes were familiar to me. I mean, I know for sure I’ve seen clips of this movie here and there. Or you know, maybe I actually saw this movie already. Anyway, this was a fun movie. Campy and cheesy scenes for sure, but the movements were beautifully shot.

To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar (1995). This definitely flew under the radar for me. And I am glad I was finally able to watch it. I enjoyed it a lot. There is one scene that definitely made me tear up. “That’s my shoe”, “Can I have my shoe back please?” I could go on. I’m just saying that, in my opinion, that scene was so powerful.

Train to Busan (2016). This has been on my watch list since it came out. And honestly, the only reason why I haven’t watched it yet was because I didn’t want to be disappointed. I’ve heard a lot of good things about this movie, but despite that, I was hesitant to watch it. But last night, Chris and I decided to just go for it. And this movie did not disappoint. This is not another zombie movie. That is a fact. It was heavy and emotional. It showed human nature – from how a kid thinks, to how an adult thinks. It showed how people would react to being put in this kind of survival. Who would be selfish, who would help others. Who would forsake others for his or her own survival. It was amazing. One of the best zombie movies I’ve watched. It made me cry for fuck’s sake.

Good Burger (1997). And for the finale of the girls’ movie night, we decided to watch this movie. We needed something not heavy as Train to Busan. And since I have not watched this movie, we settled on this one. And it was the perfect downtime we needed. I mean, the movie was funny. It was something that we didn’t really need to think about. “Welcome to Good Burger. Home of the good burger. Can I take your order?” Let’s just say that the movie was a trip and fun.

No big plans tonight. Just rest and read. I’ve just been exhausted lately. Do not ask me why, I have no idea. I have no reason to be exhausted but here I am. Barely awake.