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05.01.22 – It’s Gonna Be May

The morning didn’t start out great. I woke up late, well later than what I would’ve liked. Not surprising since I think I was up late last night. Since I planned on going to the store to do some groceries, I would’ve like to have woken up as early as 6 AM. But I mean, it was fine. I just don’t like going to the store when it’s crowded already.

And Costco was just that. A crowded mess. Hard to believe when I actually went there a few minutes they opened. Too many people. Especially when a lot of them don’t like to follow the keep right unspoken rule. Some of them in the middle of the freaking aisle. So yes, my anxiety was on high alert this morning. It was not fun.

My hun got lucky and the Twilight Saga movies have been removed from viewing without live subscription on Hulu. He dodged the bullet of watching those movies for now. He procrastinated long enough. I’ll keep an eye up on those movies though. I want to watch all the movies with him.

We finished Persona5. And I was right about Akechi being the “Black Mask”. I knew there was something so untrustworthy about that guy. That was a good anime. I liked it. Sad that they won’t be able to go the metaverse anymore. But I’m glad that Morgana still ended up with them. I actually thought that he will be gone since the metaverse was no more since he was not technically from earth. He was such a cutie cat. I would love to have a plushy of him. Well, his metaverse version. Going back to the anime, I love the backstories of each characters. They were fleshed out. Even Akechi’s backstory was pretty awful – still doesn’t excuse what he did. I would’ve liked it even better if Morgana’s story was a bit more explored. It just felt rushed to me to be honest. I still think that Haru was a very random addition.

My hun and I were kind of not in the mood to watch anything in particular, so we started watching Blue Exorcist next. Three episodes in. So far, it’s interesting. I feel like Rin is one of those protagonists that has the potential to be unlikable. He’s very stubborn and loud and impulsive, not to mention hot headed. With the episodes we watched, he was definitely difficult to root for. But I do understand the intense surge of emotions coming from him. Why he needed answers right away. I mean, this information was just kind of thrown at him at rapid speed. And he needs to be okay with those in snap. My hun said he doesn’t change. So we shall see. I’ve been known to give up on animes with unlikable protagonists.

We also watched Beetlejuice today! That was fun. I watched that movie before – a long time ago – and I don’t really remembered much from the movie. So it definitely felt like I was watching for the first time. Michael Keaton in that movie was chef’s kiss. He played Beetlejuice really well. And a young Alec Baldwin, oh god. Such a hottie. The little goth Winona Rider, YES! And that red wedding dress! And now I want that Handbook for the Recently Deceased in my collection.

Today has been relaxing. It was needed. I was not sluggish which was nice for once. But we shall see how I feel tomorrow. Mondays are always difficult for me.

04.30.22 – The Bed Calls My Name

Damn. I was so sluggish today! Woke up, fed the doggos, and started doing laundry. And then I took an unplanned nap. UNPLANNED. I just decided to put head on the pillow and bam. I woke up and the documentary that I was watching before the nap was over and something totally different was playing. I still felt unrested. Drank tea in the afternoon to get some caffeine in me. Didn’t help to be honest. I’m still feeling very sleepy.

Finally watched Twilight with my love. LOL His commentaries were funny. Apparently, he watched the movie before during a supernatural literature class and my question was, why in hell would they choose Twilight? Why not Dracula or Interview with the Vampire? Yep, I had questions on who decided the curriculum. That series do not follow the vampire lore at all. Especially the most integral part – not being to survive under the sun! The movie is definitely problematic in some cases, but I just can’t let myself to hate it as much or make fun of it. I enjoyed the series at one point in my life and I will continue to adore it I guess.

Finished Trigun today…And not going to lie, the ending was meh. It was anti-climatic for an ending. I was so stuck on the fact that the ideals Vash was fighting for were not even his. It was an ideal dream by Rem, a pseudo-mother who “raised” him and Knives for like what? 5 years maybe? And then I got even more annoyed because it has been 130 years since Rem died, and Vash didn’t learn anything. 130 years of being exposed to humans and Vash failed to learn and form his own principles! Come on! Even in real life, there’s no such thing as black and white. There is always a sacrifice for a bigger gain. That’s just how life works. I even joked with my hun that Vash will hug Knives and everything will be okay. Guess what? Vash still didn’t kill Knives considering how much human lives Knives has taken. I don’t get it. Don’t get me wrong, I like the anime. Storyline was good. I was pissed at some parts – Wolfwood dying – but definitely one of the good ones out there.

Watched more of Persona5. Futaba is adorable. My hun said that Ren and Futaba have shippers out there. But I didn’t get that energy from them in the anime. Definitely more of a sibling relationship going on between those two. But I like her. It’s nice to see her making friends slowly after being so trapped in her head alone for years. Haru…she feels like a random add to be honest. I don’t know. We’ll see. But I feel like she is somewhat out of place. And that person in a black mask…I’m putting my money that it’s that Detective Prince, Akechi. It’s him. Watching Morgana’s struggle was difficult. It was all about finding purpose and feeling helpless. And getting over that. I hope there is some sort of happy ending for him.

Tomorrow, I have to do some errands. Go to the store, which I’m already getting anxiety just thinking about it. I hate crowds and stores are always crowded. Even in the morning. But afternoon, hopefully I get to hang out again with my love. I’m planning to watch New Moon with him. LOL

04.29.22 – Happy Tiyan…Worth it?

Today was potluck at work. There were so much food. Meatballs. Chips and artichoke dip. Cheesecake. Greek salad. Ham and cheese sliders. Lasagna. I mean, I ate my heart out. So for the whole day, I was not hungry pretty much the whole afternoon. Can’t complain really…But, is it worth it?

I love food. I really do. But I’m practically allergic to the most common stuff. And as you saw, the menu for today potluck was definitely not me-friendly. So as I am typing this, I feel like I’m suffering. Well my skin is anyway. My arms are itchy. My back. My face. My back. Yeah… not fun. I often say, that food is worth it. But for the sake of being honest, I often feel like it’s not. But also, I have no discipline for the most part. I would have days that I’ll be good at staying away from food that might contain allergens, but I can’t keep it up.

Well, I’m not bored at work today. Meetings all morning, then dealing with samples after and practically all afternoon. Got lucky that my meeting scheduled for the afternoon got canceled. CANCELED! Normally, it will get rescheduled but this one to canceled. Thank god. I’ve definitely been feeling exhausted when you’re practically in meetings the every single day.

So, Trigun…I thought that will never be annoyed with this anime. I guess, I should be surprised. Something was bound to come up. I cannot believe this anime did Nicholas D. Wolfwood dirty! He died! I was so annoyed! I should’ve known. My hun tried to warn me, they were showing his backstory in that episode And in my head, he was a major character, they wouldn’t do him dirty. Such a nonsensical way to die either. Ugghhhh. I cannot. My hun and I only have three episodes left. Most likely will be finishing it today.

Let’s talk about Persona5. They added a new member! The Queen and Johana. Such a badass. Such a good aesthetic. She looks more like a knight! Compared to Panther who is a dominatrix. Just wasn’t surprised with how Takamaki’s persona costume turned out. More of an eye roll on my end. That was very predictable. Story wise though, I love it. Each character’s back story was pretty intense. They just introduced Alibaba. Futaba. This backstory is pretty intense. And she wants the phantom thieves to steal her heart. I can’t wait to learn more!

04.28.22 – When the Time Stood Still

Yes. I know. The title is a tad dramatic. I tend to be dramatic when I get bored at work. And it happens at lot more than I care to admit. Yeah I know I know. But time really stands still in that lab. I personally think that it’s just not busy enough for me. I guess what I’m trying to say is that the job in general is not challenging for me anymore. And that is not the fault of the lab I work at right now. But more on the fact that I have been doing this for far too long and I’m hitting a wall. To be honest, most likely had hit a wall for some time now. I often wonder what would have happened if I had gotten that lab manager job that I wanted three years ago, would I be bored now? Who knows, knowing me, yes. Probably.

The only saving grace I had from the boredom today was a book I decided to bring with me. I don’t normally bust out a book at work but I was desperate today. I was just staring at the computer all day and I have nothing to do. Normally, I would just read at work and hide in the conference room if I only have a few pages left to read. But today, I just needed something to break a monotonous hum of my workdays.

I am currently rewatching You on Netflix. This would be the 5th time I’m watching it I think. I lost count. I don’t know what it is about this show that makes me keep coming back to it when I feel like I’ve exhausted every possible resources for media entertainment. Well that’s a lie. I just like the show so much. I really did like how they characterized Joe Goldberg. Compared to the book of the same name by Caroline Kepnes, I prefer the show. This is one of the few times that I can honestly say that the show is better. I read the second book (Hidden Bodies) too, but I still prefer the show. I often say that the second book was a sequel that no one asked for. Well in my opinion anyway. Not planning on reading the third book. But I will continue to consume this show as much as I want.

Got to watch some animes with my love. Well, we did watch two animes but a few episodes of each anime. We started out with Trigun. I’m really enjoying that anime for sure. So I got pissed when my hun told me that there is only one season! What the heck?! Why??? Why would an anime as good as this only has ONE SEASON?? I shouldn’t be surprised to be honest, Yuri on Ice only has one season. Yeah, I’m still not happy about that.

The other one is Persona5. This one I really like as well. I really love how well made this one is. And also, I like how this anime is making my hun nerd out since he played the game. Right now, at this very moment, as he is driving to work, and as I am typing this, he is talking about the game. I really find it adorable and making me smile a lot. He compares the show to the game a lot and so far he thinks that there has been no major discrepancies. They called themselves misfits but I think they are more outcasts. And I love how the creators let them found each other. Their backstories are definitely heartbreaking especially this last character that was introduced, Yusuke. HEARTBREAK. HEARTBREAK. HEARTBREAK.

Tomorrow is Friday! Thank goodness. I swear, I’ve been looking forward to Friday since I woke up on Monday! We’re doing some potluck at work tomorrow and I decided to bring lasagna…I will be cheating though. I just got the frozen one because no way in hell I’m putting much effort on cooking for this. I do want to get some more reading done tomorrow. So hopefully I get to do that.

04.27.22 – My Brain is just a Blank Space

I’m feeling a bit meh at the moment. I’ve been staring at this screen and I am struggling to get some words out. You know? Like my brain is blank and there is really nothing in my head but blank space? This bothers me. Since my brain is pretty active. Always running. May it be full of nonsensical stuff like thinking about fried chicken or chocolate, or thinking about starting a project and practicing my data science skills so it can remain sharp.

But today, it’s just blank.

I am not going to say how I felt when I woke up, I’m pretty sure you can deduce how my waking hour went. I’m just feeling off today. Way off. I’m also very irritable. I was annoyed at anyone who talked to me. And I had to force some friendliness out of me. Normally, that is pretty easy for me since I had to pretend to be friendly and approachable all the time. But today, that was very difficult.

Right now, I have the movie She’s All That playing in the background. I think the next movie I will play is Austenland. When I’m feeling like this, I tend to turn to the familiars. My go-to’s. Something I know that I will enjoy, even if I do not put my full attention to it. Hoping that it will make mood slightly better.

Tomorrow, I will have to go to the store to get some stuff for the potluck on Friday. Thinking of just getting the frozen lasagna and cooking it. I highly debated if I wanted to cook spaghetti but I just didn’t feel like putting that much effort into it. So frozen lasagna it is.

Tomorrow is blue day in the lab. Not sure what to wear since my wardrobe consisted of mainly black…and maybe some gray. So I will have to rummage my closet to see. I’m pretty sure I have a blue somewhere.

Haven’t been able to pick up a book and just read too. Not sure what is wrong with me. I do not like forcing myself either. I tend to not enjoy a book if I force myself to read. I just want to lie down and drown myself with YouTube videos. You know, reading vlogs and reading journal videos. I’m not sure really. Even that feels like a chore today.

Hopefully tomorrow is better. Yeah right – I would need to make a quick presentation about PPE (personal protective equipment) for lab people. Yay. Forced again to do something that I do not feel like doing. So pointless. They can read that in our SOP. Oh well.

04.26.22 – I Cannot Believe It’s Only Tuesday

The sadness that I felt when I realized that it’s only Tuesday was not pretty. Well today was not pretty. I woke up this morning with no energy. Sluggish. Dragging. At that moment, I knew that today will be rough. I mean, for the most part, I have low energy on weekdays but today was definitely a struggle. My energy depleted even more the moment I scanned my fob to enter the office. Yeah, today was rough.

Management had some cupcakes delivered in the office to celebrate lab week. They ordered a dozen of Baker’s choice cupcakes, 3 gluten-free cupcakes, and 2 vegan cupcakes. I started laughing when I saw the selection because if they combined the gluten-free cupcakes with vegan frosting then it would have been perfectly me-proof! But of course, it’s the thought that counts. So what did I do? Ate one of the gluten-free ones, and one of the vegan ones.

Had some more QT with my love today after work. Watched some Yuri on Ice – well, finished the the anime. And yes, I cried again. As my hun would say, my allergies were acting up big time. That anime was just so well made. The story, the ice skating animation, the love story. That anime was just so perfect to me.

Watched some Trigun and met Eriks. My first thought was that, is that Vash? With long hair? Meryl was pretty glad and they were reunited with Vash. Yeah, this girl really has a huge boner for this tall ass blond humanoid. And I’m also glad that I got to see Wolfwood again. He should really be in more episodes.

I started reading My Friend Anna last night. And one thing I can say right now, I think the Netflix show did the author of this book dirty. That’s all I’m going to say right now since I am only 50 pages in. My opinion might change later on.

I think that’s it for now. At least tomorrow is hump day. Hopefully, time won’t drag as much. As I type that, I remembered that I have meetings tomorrow. Great.