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02.23.23 – Back in SoCal.

I was feeling really anxious today. There is something about flying to California fills me with stress. Well flying in general gives me stress so me being anxious for this trip is not surprising. On top of that, when I reached the gate at the airport, there were a bunch of teens all over the place. Lying on chairs, on the floors. Then the delays of the flight. I had issues sitting still. So I had to walk around. Which was technically not a problem but I just didn’t like feeling that way. We boarded the plane and we were even more delayed because the aircraft was waiting for the catering. It was bit too much, I think that was why I passed out during the whole flight. I was sleeping before the flight took off. And I woke up when the plane was landing. So much for reading.

Not going to lie, it was nice seeing my family. Four years for sure is a while considering that the distance between us is only 3 hrs away by plane. Anyway, the drive from the airport was fine. Traffic. But I mean, this is California. And it is raining! Which was a nice surprise. We had dinner and now I am so full and could not move.

Planning on reading a bit tonight before I sleep. I need to wake up earlier than I planned. Apparently the first trip that my parents want to take me to is an MD appointment tomorrow. And the location is an hour away. And I laughed and in my head I said “yay…”.

One thing that I want to get done during this PTO is finish my resume and apply to jobs aggressively. That and read. I brought two books with me that I want to finish. And another book in case I finished the two.

02.21.23 – Who’s Exhausted? Me.

I am exhausted.

I did not get to drink coffee today. I spent my day talking and socializing.

So yeah, I have no energy now. Just drained.

My hun and I got to hang out today, which was nice. I mean, I would be in SoCal for over a week and tonight would be the last night that we would be able to watch anime until I get back. We watched three episodes of Haikyu!! and two episodes of Souleater.

Haikyu!! This anime is good. So good. As I quote my hun, “it’s too good to be a sports anime”. The anime just really does not let you feel a lull. Even the “lulls” are not lulls. Tsukki’s character development is amazing in this arc. The subtle shifts in his attitude while in court, just perfectly done. The other team, I think they are the only team that has not shown any sort of development or evolution. There is always one character that annoys me in an anime, well there is one here. Ushijima. I really do not like him. He is so boring. And honestly, all he does is hit the ball hard – with his left hand. I mean he has no personality. My favorite from that team is Tendo, the middle blocker. That guy is just as animated as a freaking villain and I love it. I am actually so surprised and got excited when I found out that Oikawa is watching the game! Incognito. He is so funny. Now, that one is a captain. A dynamic captain. Shiratorizawa is an okay team. They are just not as good as Johsai, in my opinion.

Souleater. I enjoyed the Blackstar episode. We see a break in his character. I would like to see a comeback from him. His confidence is not doing so hot right now. And I would like for him to get back out there. I didn’t care for the other episode. I just do not like episodes that are heavily Maka-centric. I am also not a big fan of Crona, so that did not help.

We had no power for a few hours last night. So I just read, which was good since I have not been able to read for a bit.

02.19.23 – My Brain Refuse to Comprehend Anything

Oh god. I am livid. Annoyed. You work your ass off for the year, and then the refund you get is a slap in the face. I mean, if you paid more for filing your tax compared to what you’re getting back is what I call bullshit on another level. Thanks a lot. You might as well tell me I have no refund.

Anyway, I had a sluggish Sunday. All I did was lie in bed. And watch YT videos. Do not get me wrong, I did cook some yellow rice with spam this morning, and threw away the trash. But the rest of the day, boy, I was not moving. So basically, my productivity ran out yesterday. I just refused to move. I was even thinking of reading today, but that did not happen. My brain just said “Nope. You are not moving today. You are not picking up a book.” And I complied. No regrets, it was a pretty relaxing Sunday.

I did not read last night either. I planned to. But I got distracted with Pretty Little Liars. And all I could think of was “Why the fuck are these grown-ass men pursuing minors?” And what killed me really was the fact that this was okay when this TV series got released back then. You have a teacher pursuing his 16-year-old student. A med school student pursuing a 16-year-old girl. Not to mention what happened in the past, when these kids were just barely 14 or 15! I mean really?? Really? This was greenlit for production? I do not know why it was so normalized. So dangerous. This should not have been a thing. Should never be a thing.

Anyway, I am planning on reading a bit tonight. Just for an hour or so. We shall see, that is the plan anyway.

02.18.23 – I was Somewhat Productive

I have been somewhat productive the last couple of mornings. I mean, I was productive at work yesterday. I honestly get more done when I feel like my day is full. I mean I knew leaving work Thursday afternoon that my day would be full of dealing with specimens but I was able to squeeze in making some flowcharts for my replacement. Yes, replacement. Since the company decided to push us out. Isn’t it so nice of them? “We’re getting rid of you, but transfer your knowledge to your replacement.” What a load of bullshit. I hate them. And I am hating that I am doing this.

Anyway, I was also quite productive this morning. Did groceries, cleared the pantry, reorganized the counters, yeah, I was busy. And I am currently doing laundry. So yeah, I think I have been really productive. I mean granted, I am procrastinating on things that I should be doing like last week. The goal is to do that next week, while I am on PTO and not dealing with work.

I was able to hang out with my love. A bit later than I wanted but it was okay. At least we were able to spend time even for a bit. And yes, we watched anime.

Chainsaw Man. There will always be a character in an anime that annoys me. And guess what? This anime has two characters that I want to yeet to the demons so they get eaten. Because they are useless. The whole time episode six was playing, I just kept on saying “die already” on those two annoying demon hunters. I cannot. I really just cannot deal with them. They were so aggravating.

Haikyu!! Well, this anime on the other hand makes my heart beat with excitement. I was pretty heated after Chainsaw Man, but Haikyu!! just put me back in such a good mood. Again, I love the dynamic between the members of the Karasuno team. I mean when Tsukki finally got his moment, the moment when volleyball becomes more than just a club for him. It was nice. My hun said that he needed this arc to fully push that development for him, and yes, I agree with him. This arc was his catalyst. And it was beautiful to watch. Okay, the other team, I mean they are impressive, don’t get me wrong. But after the match with Johsai, I would like to say Shiratorizawa was okay. I mean Johsai was an amazing team, the way they constantly move as a team, not to mention the captain – Oikawa. That captain is impressive to watch on the court, Ushijima is boring. He is so stiff. The fact that my favorite person to watch on their team is Tendo, the middle blocker, is saying a lot. Now, he is an interesting character. He is very animated and villainous, I love him.

Souleater. We skipped some episodes. And I am happy about the skip that we did. I am still not a fan of Maka and now that Death said that she might have the power to actually eliminate the Kishin made me roll my eyes. I mean, she’s the chosen one now? How convenient. Whatever.

I was supposed to read last night but I passed out. I mean alcohol will do that. So I did not get to read. I will tonight though. Well, that is the plan anyway.

02.16.23 – When Motivation Goes Out the Window

I could have been more productive at work today. It was a light day and today should have been the best day to get some things done. Unfortunately, I found myself staring at a blank document and struggling to start whatever it was I needed to do. To sum it up, I did not end up doing anything today. It was so bad. Yeah, I just lazied it up today. I did get some work done. But I was not as productive as I wanted. I was on YT and TikTok pretty much the whole day. It was not my proudest moment.

My hun and I got to hang out tonight. We watched anime. No surprise there. We love our anime.

Chainsaw Man. We watched episodes three and four. So far so good. This anime was a bit overhyped. My hun agrees with me. I am not saying it’s bad. It’s just that at this time, nothing stands out for us. My hun thinks that Denji needs a more serious goal – “cop a feel” is too shallow. But I disagree. At this moment, Denji already reached his dream – eating, bathing, a decent place to sleep, a job. And right now he is living his dream for Pochita. I think it is very refreshing to see an MC do just that. And ultimately, living his dream is his goal. Stacking on that, regardless of how shallow it might be, is fine by me. He is after all only a teenager (16) from a difficult life. If “cop a feel” is his goal at the moment, that makes sense to me.

Haikyu!! We watched episodes one and two. And I was already on the edge of my seat. I mean it is the finals after all. And I cannot wait to see how Karasuno will play against Shiratorizawa. I mean, they already had a difficult time during the first set. I want to see Karasuno will bounce back. Or if they can. We shall see. We got introduced to some new characters and the one that stood out for me was Satori Tendo, with his red hair and tall stature. He looks like some villain from a shounen anime. I was intrigued by him off the bat.

Disgaea. We watched episode two of this one. And it was fine. There were moments when I forgot to read the subtitles because I was distracted by how cute and feisty Laharl is. We got introduced to Mid-Boss. The Dark Adonis. I do not know, but this anime just makes me smile. It was definitely something nice to end with.

I did read quite a bit last night. I did pick up Heaven Official’s Blessing book 1 as planned and I like it. I mean I already watched the anime on Netflix and I enjoyed it a lot. So I am not surprised that I am also enjoying the book. I heard this series also got a webseries, so I am planning on scouring the internet for that. Because that is the kind of person I am when I get obsessed about something. So far I like the details in the book. The anime did not deviate too much from the parts that I read, which I appreciate. But of course, the book has more details which I really enjoy. The book so far is making me laugh, making me annoyed with some characters, and intriguing me at the same time. So, I cannot complain. I cannot wait to finish the book so I can buy the second book.

02.14.23 – OMG! Karasuno is Going to the Finals!

I feel so exhausted today. I mean like seriously, what is it about the sample size lately? We are getting more and more samples daily and it’s getting tiring. On top of all the BS going on at work, yeah, the increased number of samples is annoying.

My hun and I were able to hang out tonight, which was nice. We watched some anime as per usual. We are not big on movies. We like our anime.

Chainsaw Man. No complaints. The MC is interesting. I mean so far, he does not follow the regular MC shounen trope. He has no big dreams and his drive is not fueled by revenge. His main focus is self-preservation, I mean that is one of the main reasons why he is working for the Public Safety group. For someone coming from nothing, he is living the dream right now. He has a job, he eats food regularly, he can take a bath. Yeah, you cannot beat that. I would love to see where Denji can go. We met Hanikawa and Power. So far, I am intrigued by Hanikawa. Sure we know his reasons for joining the Public Safety group – revenge. I do not blame him, his family was killed by demons in front of him. So yeah. Power seems to be crazy. We shall see.

Haikyu!! We finished season 2. And oh boy, the last three episodes had me at the edge of my seat. I mean what the heck! Why is this anime so good??? Oikawa is just amazing as a setter and a captain. I am not a fan of him when he is off the court, with his fangirls. But damn, he is a monster while playing volleyball. The ace for Johsai, Iwaizumi, is pretty amazing too. That save. Jesus. That last set in general is something. I know I am talking about Johsai right now, but I think the Karasuno win was definitely unexpected for everyone. But damn, that was just amazing. The drive coming from both teams was commendable. And I need to stop using amazing now. I cannot wait for the game between Karasuno and Shiratorizawa. And since this anime was my pick, I need to pick another anime to watch. And I already chose Haikyu!! season three. No point in delaying the finals.

Souleater. It was the train express episode! A Death the Kid episode. And it was chaotic. Definitely the total opposite of Kid, who is all about symmetry and organization. I could not stop laughing when he was doing skateboard tricks while chasing the train with enemies around. Adorable. Out of the three meisters, I like him the best. Followed really closely by Blackstar. I really do not like Maka. Sad, because I like Soul and it would have been nice if he is being wielded by someone else. So far so good though, I still want to continue to with the anime.

I am planning to read tonight before I sleep. And I am also planning on waking up at a decent hour tomorrow to cook again. I liked cooking this morning. I was able to wake up early-ish to cook rice and some Japanese sausage for my packed lunch.