Like The Tomato
Nothing here but my musings about daily life, books, anime, and food.
For the people who know me well, I am not a gamer. I suck at it. A potato gamer to the core. But after seeing some streamers play the game, and finding out that it is free to download, I went ahead, jumped the gun, and downloaded the game.
Yes, Honkai: Star Rail. After a very stressful and panic-induced morning, I wanted to escape my brain. And then I realized I have been playing the game for six hours. I was engaged with the game. Which was nice. And yes, I read everything and just let them talk. No skipping here. I do not skip dialogues.
Anyway, it was fun. I personally liked the turn-based combat system. I appreciated the fact that you can actually exploit the opponent’s weaknesses while in combat. The graphics were great. The music was pretty awesome. And the characters were interesting. I named my character “Pogi”. Because he was pogi.
I had to force myself to stop playing because I had to feed the dogs and actually had to prepare my food as well. Because if I did not do that, I would be gaming non-stop. So now what? I could go back to playing the game. But I think I want to read now. My eyes have been glued to the screen for practically the whole day. They needed the rest.
Well, there was nothing more annoying than waking up with a headache. Why oh why? Lack of sleep. I have no one else to blame but myself. I decided to stay up because I want to read. The problem is, since I am older, staying up until early in the morning has consequences. Let’s just say that I was sporting a headache the whole day. From the moment I woke up until now.
This was the question that came to mind: Was it worth it?
Yeah. It was. It was really something that I have not done in a long time. It was nice to actually stay up doing something I enjoy. I used to read like this in my 20’s. Stay up all night to read. Sleep at 4 AM. Then wake up at 6 AM to get ready for work. Of course, I could not do that anymore. My body wouldn’t let me be that crazy. So once in a while, I would love to do this. And I would like to take advantage of the fact that I have no job right now. So… Yeah.
I mean, I did have a nice nap yesterday though. A couple of hours was enough to derail my actual sleep schedule so I just went ahead and took advantage of that. And my brain was actually nice to me. I remember the beginning of a dream during my nap. I was back to working at the lab I used to work at. This was not the first time that I dreamed of this scenario and my sleeping self would just ride the stress out for the duration of that dream. But my brain was actually decent yesterday and forced me to wake up. As if to say, “You need to wake up. You are going through so much shit right now. You don’t need this bullshit.” I appreciated it.
Anyway, I finished The Lies I Tell last night or I should say this morning. Technicalities. Does not matter. The novel was decent. I liked it enough to continue. I enjoyed the friendship that blossomed between the two MCs. I appreciated how everything unfolded – the MCs’ motivations on why they do the things they do, and how that came into play with the whole plot. The twist was fine. It was not hard to see that the story was going that way. However, I did not want to believe it. I was blinded because I did like that character because of the three quotes that this person said that stuck with me.
I have not been able to do some reorg the past couple of days. I was in a really terrible headspace for a couple of days. But the project would resume tomorrow. I needed to finish this project in the next few days. At least that was what I want to happen. But would it happen that way? Most likely not. But if I could power through, then I would. So much to do, so little time.
Well, I was able to hang out with my love today. I was pretty much off the whole time. I was just tired I think. But I still had fun. Just a bit tired.
Naruto. The preliminaries started. We already some of the characters who won. No surprise on some. The next episode would be the Naruto vs Kiba fight. We both did not care about the Sakura vs Ino episodes, I still don’t get why there had to be two episodes for Sakura. Bleh. Ino should’ve won. She made Sakura fall for her hysterics and trapped her with her hair. It was a pretty good strategy. And yes, I had to skip the flashbacks. I just don’t like Sakura and she could be eliminated from the series and it will still be good.
Inuyasha. It was alright. Kikyo showed herself again in the last episode that we watched. It was fine. That stupid sacred jewel fragment snapped out of the chain around Kagome’s neck. I’m just so done with her.
I still had to find a new anime to watch since we finished Sk8 the Infinity since that was my pick. Maybe tomorrow or tonight, I can browse for one. I honestly just want something fun right now. My patience was a bit thin today and I got really worked up with seeing Sakura and Kagome on the screen.
Plans tonight? Most likely read until I pass out. Because I will. Tomorrow, reorganize another part of the apartment. LOL
After only a week and a half of not having a job, I’m already feeling the pressure and I’m starting to panic a little bit. The job I recently lost was not something easy to replace. That position was not easily replaceable. Not because it was that great but because a position like that rarely becomes available. So I am stuck. I feel I might need to withdraw my 401K to survive. I might not have a choice.
Anyway, I was feeling out of sorts. I was not really in the mood to do much of anything. But I think my anxiety is just off the roof right now. Especially today. I’ve just been browsing the internet the whole day. Yeah, productive right?
I was able to hang out with love today. We finished Sk8 the Infinity and watched an episode of Naruto.
Sk8 the Infinity. Mu hun enjoyed this one. He gave this anime 7.5 to 8 rating over 10. I loved this anime. As weird as it may sound, I think it’s 9 or 9.5 for me. Why? It’s so easy to get caught up in the slice-of-life part of this anime and enjoy it that way. Enjoy the theatrics of Adam. Enjoy the fast-paced skateboarding races. But when you look deeper into each character, there’s loneliness, there’s wanting to be strong for another person, isolation, and depression. Seeing the characters overcome that, to open themselves up to other people, was amazing to see. And when it all comes down to it, that was the hook of this anime for me. The interpersonal relationships of these skaters with each other was the one that kept me watching. Well, that and the soundtrack was good.
Naruto. Nothing really happened in the episode that we watched. The trio just passed the second Chunin exam. So hopefully the next episode will have more.
I am planning on reading tonight. Not sure if I want to read a book or some webtoons. I am leaning toward more webtoon reading. I am just so out of it today. And I don’t know if I will be able to focus on a book. I don’t know. I am just winging it right now. I’m pretty sure I’m just in a funk today because of the vet bill that I had to pay. I am hoping tomorrow I will be in a much better mental state.
When I decided to do this reorganization project while being jobless, I should’ve realized that my CTS will act up and make me suffer. Yeah, that happened today. My right wrist decided to just yell fuck you as I was hammering the nails on the shelf that I am want to use as some kind of makeshift pantry since this apartment lacked space in that department.
I mean, I did it, the shelf looked decent on top of another shelf. But my wrist definitely suffered. I know – consequences. But at least, that area looked somewhat organized. It would have to do for the time being until I can move to a bigger place with actual storage.
Other than that, my day has been pretty chill. A lot of it involved watching streams. And reading. I definitely made a dent in The Lies I Tell. And I have feelings about it. I was happy to see how Meg, the con artist – MC, got her start and why she did it. And I appreciated why she did. It needed to be done. Sure it was for selfish reasons, but I think the first person she conned deserved it. The reason why she did it was a bit difficult to push through. It was definitely triggering. And then we have Kat, the reporter – the other MC, who spent 10 years of her life researching Meg so that she could expose her as the con artist that she was. Why? Because of something that happened to her 10 years ago that changed her life and seemed to be blaming Meg for it. Which I don’t get. But who knows, maybe it will unfold more for me as the story goes on.
So far, I’m invested in the story, which is good. That is how it should work for thrillers. I should not be able to put it down. It is a page-turner for sure. Even the triggering parts were only a paragraph or so. Not too bad. I’m going to continue reading tonight. I do have an early appointment tomorrow for the dogs, so I need to wake up early-ish to at least get ready.
Do you know what I hate the most? Waking up in a bad mood. Why? Let’s see, you would think I would be in a better mood this morning. I slept for 9 hours. But that was not the case. Let’s just say my dream was stressful and I woke in a really shitty mood.
Anyway, despite my sluggish start and laziness creeping in, I think I still had a pretty productive day. I cleaned the kitchen counter and freed some space, threw trash, cooked beef caldereta and rice. So productive.
My hun and I watched some anime today. It was fun like always.
Sk8 the Infinity. My hun likes Adam and he said that it was his character that made the anime. I mean, I understood though. Adam was definitely theatrical. Adam was fun to watch for sure, but the hook for me was the relationship between Reki and Langa. And of course, the shallow part of me just like seeing Cherry on screen.
Inuyasha. For the most part, the episodes were fun and I was enjoying watching the anime. Then it would a female-centric episode and it annoyed me. I would forever have issues with female characters from older anime. I just could not stand how they were written. And this anime was no exception. The last two episodes that we watched focused on Sangu. I was happy when she got introduced and joined the group because finally an actual female character that I would see regularly who could actually fight along with Inuyasha and Miroku. But of course, they just had to put these episodes on how she got easily manipulated by Naraku. I cannot.
Naruto. This show was just getting better and better. As predicted, after that hair-cutting scene, Sakura remained useless. USELESS. Whatever. Kabuto’s real allegiance got revealed. And Sasuke got a taste of power and bloodlust. That was something. My hun enjoyed that a lot. He was also surprised that this anime could be pretty violent. And it was. This anime was just good and I really enjoyed it the first time I watched it. And I’m glad that my love seems to be enjoying it as well.
I did not get to read last night. I passed out. I planned to resume reading The Lies I Tell or honestly, I really just want to start reading Heaven Official’s Blessing Book 2. We shall see though. Either way, I would be reading tonight.
Had a late start today. Yes, I woke up late. Well, way later than normal. And I think that was a major factor in my mood today. Not that I’m not lazy daily. But I just found myself dragging the whole day. It was fine, I mean I was still able to go to the H-Mart to get some groceries. I wanted to get some Filipino food but the restaurant was so busy that I just decided to get some Filipino breakfast to go instead of dining in the restaurant.
I got home and took my sweet ass time to do laundry and wash dishes. But the dishes got washed. And now the last load of laundry is waiting patiently for the dryer.
I tried reading this afternoon. The keyword is tried. Because one hour since I started reading, I only read ten pages. Not my fault that I could not focus. The food coma hit me so hard that I had to keep reading a sentence so many times. So I gave up and just laid down and cuddled with my dog because why not.
I am planning on reading tonight though. Because I need to take advantage of this mood. After those weeks of a reading slump, yeah, I want to take advantage of this. I picked up a new book, The Lies I Tell. I mean it’s interesting right now. The story is still in the set-up stage. But that is fine. I might want to pick up Heaven Official’s Blessing Book 2 after I read a couple of chapters of this new book. But we shall see. If the story picks up, I would probably just read this continuously. Yes, I have a habit of reading multiple books.
Again this is just a plan since I have a huge feeling that I will pass out. So we will see what I end up doing.