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05.16.23 – And I Dropped It.

Well, the earlier part of the day was rough. I had a very bad headache. I was able to cook some pasta though and went to the store to get a bit of groceries. It was not too hot today compared to yesterday so I just decided to get the grocery trip out of the way. However, my skin went haywire right when the sun touched it. It got really itchy with welts and rashes – my hands, my arms, legs, and neck. So I just took some allergy pills when I got home, and that took care of that little skin incident.

The rest of the afternoon was pretty chill. I just watched some YouTube videos. Boyfriend and I did hang out today and was able to watch some anime.

Naruto. We found that Kakashi thought Sasuke his Chidori. Orichimaru showed himself. Sound and Sand ninjas were starting to infiltrate Konoha. And Sakura had issues just doing what she was told. She had to be told three times to release Naruto and Shikamaru from the gengutsu that Kabuto did. But Pakkun finally got introduced formally! Yay! And he said his paw pad was soft and supple!

Inuyasha. I decided to drop this anime. My hun would continue watching this on his own though. But I just couldn’t continue with this one anymore. I was just beyond frustrated with the story at this point. So I was able to reach episode 50. Boyfriend was actually surprised that I lasted this long. I had to check how much more episodes were left in this anime. So 4 episodes left in season 2 and then 5 more seasons after that, so I just gave up. The last two episodes just made me so frustrated.

Spoiler
Two Kohaku episodes, where these characters kept on saying that he would die if the fragment of the sacred jewel was removed from him. The kid was already dead, there was no lifeline, no soul. NOTHING. Sangu actually found the resolve to just end his brother’s “life” right then, to give her brother peace. But Kagome decided, hey he hesitated killing me so he’s still there. How did she deduce that? Because he just wounded her on the arm instead of actually killing her. Because there was a little bit of pause. And then Inuyasha intervened between Sango and Kohaku. That lead to Kohaku back with Naraku to be controlled over and over.

I cannot anymore. I was just done. I was done and it was all because of freaking Kagome who kept on insisting on wearing a fucking school uniform in this world when she could’ve easily worn regular clothes since she periodically goes back to her world anyway. Whatever, I’m done ranting about this anime.

Bungo Stray Dogs. We are definitely enjoying this one. No complaints so far. I loved the inner struggles of Atsushi, I hope he finds his worth soon. Also, that orphanage sucks balls. I am interested to know Dasai’s background. I mean I am interested in knowing the others too. But Dasai for the most part seems to have some interesting history. I am interested to see character development on Atsushi’s part. He has some pretty big trauma to overcome, and I want to see him able to control his ability.

Nothing major planned tonight. Just chill, maybe read something.

05.15.23 – Another Hot Day. Heat Advisory In Effect.

Ugh. I was melting like no one’s business. It was not fun. I had to do a couple of manual labor tasks today and damn, I struggled. It was not fun moving furniture around the apartment today. But I knew if I didn’t do it today, it will never be done. Why? Because I am the master of procrastination. And besides, the whole will be hot AF. So technically would have no other choice but to get it done today.

Oh! My boyfriend actually woke up from his nap last night and we were able to hang out and watch The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2. I mean, judging his reactions to the whole series, it was safe to assume that he enjoyed the movies. He said he was glad that he finally watched the movies since he put them on the back burner. He was not sure if he wanted to watch them or not. I understand though, this series was so easy to pass on. I mean, this was considered a dystopian young adult series, heavily marketed to young girls, with a female protagonist in this love triangle situation. But honestly, it was way more than that. Sure the romance was there, but this series was political and tackled civil war. When it all comes down to it, it was about the masses taking back their freedom from the few elites who enslaved and used them for their resources. I loved the books and I loved the movies. I think that the adaptation was well-made and stayed true to the source material.

Anyway, since today was hotter compared to the last couple of days, I was a bit restless. I was able to do whatever I planned to do today. However, my anxiety was heightened and I was very irritable. Whatever, at least I did something despite the freaking heat. I had to take a raincheck from hanging out with my love. I was very irritable and restless pretty much the whole day. I did not want to subject him to one snappy tomato. Because I get really bad in this sort of mood combo.

No big plans tonight. I just want to relax and not do anything. Why? My back hurts from moving a freaking set of drawers from one part of the apartment to another part. So yeah, I’m having a party tonight.

05.14.23 – Did I Ever Say I Hate Summers?

Oh my god. The heat I cannot. Let’s just say that I barely moved from where I was sitting the whole day. Because even the slightest movement was too much. I know that I was being a baby, but I really don’t care. I cannot deal with the heat, my breathing gets difficult and it just makes me even lazier than I should be. So not good. Whatsoever.

I was able to hang out with the boyfriend for a little bit today. He had a rough night sleeping last night and we had to end the hangout a lot earlier than normal. We did get to watch The Hunger Games: Mockingjay, Part 1 so that was good. He seemed to really enjoy the series. He said that this one was pretty intense. And depending on how he likes the second part, he might want to read the books.

I teased my boyfriend earlier. He has this 1999 limited edition Pokeball that he likes to open on cam once in a while while we are video chatting. I know, he’s a nerd. I love it. Anyway, he decided to open it again. He slowly lifted it to the camera from the bottom, and before he opened it I said, “You would think there’s a ring in there.” I started laughing because he paused. And then he said that he would never ever look at that Pokeball the same ever again. It was worth it just for his reaction alone.

He decided to take a nap. We might hang out when he wakes up. But we shall see how he feels. Or if he even wakes up from the nap. I would like for it to be a full-on sleep for him. I feel like he has not been getting enough rest. And he needs sleep.

I really have no big plans tonight. I should really try to read a book or something. I have not been able to pick a book the past weeks since I finished Heaven Official’s Blessing Book 2. Not for the lack of trying. I was just not in the mood at all. Which was not an excuse, but just a fact.

Anyway, honestly, with the heat, I am just going to chill for the rest of the night.

05.13.23 – I Do Not Like Summer.

I know a lot of people prefer the summer, especially if you live in places where it snows or places that are just cold all year round. But I grew up in a pretty warm country and having lived in a State that has practically summer all year long, I am not a fan of the season. I am not saying that today was the hottest that I have experienced, but it was still pretty hot for my liking.

Just because of the weather, I had the lights off in the apartment the whole day. And it was nice for a bit. And tomorrow is another hot day, so I need to wake up early to get some chores done so I wouldn’t need to move the rest of the day.

I was able to hang out with the boyfriend for a little bit. We both were not feeling well, so we had to stop early today. Which was fine, we got to squeeze in quite a number of anime episodes.

Naruto. I love Shikamaru. I just think he never felt challenged with his stuff and that was why he seemed to be unmotivated. Sure, granted, he kept saying “What a pain” and all that. But I really think that he just needed a more challenging environment so that he could use his brain a bit more. Sasuke finally showed his ass. And I am pumped about this fight with Gaara. I would’ve been fine not seeing Sakura whatsoever in the four episodes that we watched. But alas, I had to see her face. Bleh.

Inuyasha. Oh god, the angst in these two romance episodes annoyed the shit out of me. I refused to rehash it. It was just annoying.

Bungo Stray Dogs. This was my original pick! And we got to watch two episodes. And so far, it was enjoyable. My hun enjoyed it as well. We both love the artwork. Those dark lines were amazing. We would continue on, I feel like this anime will be chaotically funny. I already love Dazai. He seems carefree, but obviously, there is more to him.

Anyway, I’m gonna try and read tonight. Not planning to read for a long time though. I just want to read a bit. At least as much as my headache will permit.

05.12.23 – Damn. Today Was Not Good.

I had a rough day. On top of my mood not being the best, I’ve just been feeling off the whole day. Headache. Right ear hurting. Eyes itchy and watery. And I felt meh. I felt tired. I felt exhausted. I felt like I want to be in bed the whole day. Of course, I did not spend the day in bed. The fact of the matter that I woke up later than usual this morning was enough to not make me actually stay in bed.

Regardless, I was able to throw away the trash from the apartment clean-up yesterday. I also walked around the block with Paco. At least he was happy about that. And for the most part, it was nice to not be in the apartment even for just a little bit. The only thing that sucked was I forgot to wear my smartwatch so my steps were not recorded. Boo. I’m going to try again tomorrow.

I was just lost watching YT videos, and watching some streams on Twitch. Well technically, I was not watching. I was more like listening because I just had my eyes closed most of the time. I couldn’t care less about other things that I need to do. I just wanted to close my eyes and not do anything. So, I guess that was a win?

05.11.23 – I Have Been Craving Sushi.

Man, sushi has been invading my brain for the last few days! Maybe a couple of weeks at the most. I just want some sushi. I think my craving started when my roommate decided to play the Yakuza series. I blame that one anyway.

Anyway, what did I do today? I cleared out some more space in the closet. Which was nice and productive! So now, I have space for blankets and bedsheets in there. Of course, I had to throw away 3 bags of stuff that I don’t wear anymore. But that was fine. Like I said, I don’t use them anymore. So bye-bye.

I guess I was in the mood to watch some movies today. So that was what my hun and I did. We watched Scream 2 and Scream 3. I knew I watched the second installment but for some reason, I did not remember anything from that movie. So I totally forgot the killers in that movie. The third installment I watched for the first time today. And I did not realize who the killer was in that movie. Although, I should’ve known looking back. Anyway, I am pretty partial to the first movie of course. I tend to not enjoy the installments after that. But this trilogy proved me wrong. I enjoyed all of them. I think the execution was better in the second movie. But like I said, I will always prefer the first movie. And I know, that there are a couple more Scream movies available in Paramount+ but I am considering these first 3 movies a trilogy. It has a clear ending and everything. And I’m pretty sure that even if I watch the other two films, these three will stand on their own.

I decided to put Peter Pan on hold. And decided to pick up The Lord of the Flies for the classic pick. And I also decided to start reading Know My Name, which is a memoir. I don’t know, I started reading Peter Pan and I was struggling, I was not in the mood for it. We shall see about how I do with The Lord of the Flies though. Know My Name has been on my TBR for quite a bit, and I think it’s time to pick it up now.