Nothing here but my musings about daily life, books, anime, and food.
Just slightly. My self loathing go overboard at times to be honest. And those days make me bound to bed, very emotional. Today my self loathing was at functional level. I may have moved slower than usual but I was still able to do things around the apartment. Well some things that needed to be done that did not involve me having to get out of the apartment.
On top of that, I’m very irritable. Why? Because I will be riding the crimson tide in the next couple days if not tomorrow. So my mood is very stretched thin. My allergies being in an all time high today is also a contributing factor.
My hun was very gracious and letting me take a rain check again today. I personally do not want to subject him to my foul mood. Yes, I would like to keep shielding him on days that I might be very difficult to handle. I can get really snappy when I’m like this. So he is better off hanging out with his friends today. I was lurking on his stream today, and he did seem to be having fun playing some DBD with his friends. So that’s a good thing.
I finished Forrest Gump. And that book was really heartwarming. That is the best adjective I can describe that book. He definitely lived his life, full of experiences that most of us would not ever get to experience in one lifetime. And I admired his resilience in everything. Next plan now is to watch the movie soon.
Scouring my bookshelf for my next read now. I’m debating if I want some romance next. I’m not sure. I’m debating if I want to give The Love Hypothesis another chance. I had to stop reading it because I cannot stand the incessant need to emphasize how tall the male love interest is. But I also feel like I want to read some more nonfiction to be honest. I have a few in my bookshelf right now. But I am also wanting some fantasy as well. I hate being a mood reader to be honest. I wish I can just stick to a to be read list like other readers out there. But I cannot.
I am currently watching You’ve Got Mail…again. I did say it’s one of my favorite movies.
I do feel bad when my anxiety gets triggered and I had to cut our date nights short. I think it was because I have been in front of the computer for most the day. I get antsy. I am like this at work as well, I have trouble just sitting or standing front of a computer for the whole shift. I had to move around for the most part. And I had to cut our date night short. I would normally power through and sometimes standing up would help but tonight was a bit difficult. My skin started breaking in hives. I was itchy and I could not stop scratching. I’m now sitting on my bed and I’m feeling slightly better. I am still scratching but it calmed down a bit.
I had a pretty busy morning. I shaved Paco, and that was interesting. This boy was squirming away from me after a while. But for the most part, it went well I think. His shave was pretty even except for his legs and paws…I also gave both dogs baths, and of course my breathing got labored a bit. Nothing too bad though.
I’ve been reading Forrest Gump today as well.
Spoiler Alert
The spaceship crashed. He lived in the jungle with cannibals for four years. Almost got cooked by said cannibals. Almost got killed by the pygmies. And now, he is a professional wrestler. When I say that this man has been through a lot, I mean he really has.
End of Spoiler
Planning to read some more. I think I have 50 to 60 pages left. But also I am feeling a bit tired. We shall see.
My hun and I just watched a couple of episodes of House. We tried looking for Soul Eater but it seems like it’s getting taken out of streaming services right now. So we will have to wait till we can watch it. So we decided to check out Battle Starts 5 Seconds After Meeting – horrible English title by the way! Then that was the end of it. Hopefully tomorrow we can hang out a bit longer.
I think I have been pretty open about me not liking mornings. Not at all. Not even a little bit. Period. Even if I had coffee or anything with caffeine, it does not change my mood. I mean, I might not be snarky with people, but it does not change the fact that I hate mornings. What I hate even more? Having to wake up and get ready quick so I can make it to an early morning meeting, only to find out that the meeting got canceled last minute. Yeah.
Busy day at work, we had a lot more samples today than usual. But we finished processing. I honestly thought that we would have some backlog but yeah, we did all of them.
My love and I decided to watch You’ve Got Mail. Still one of my favorites, I tend to watch this movie over and over when it’s available. And I am glad that I got to share it with him. To be honest, I’m actually surprised that he liked it. But yay! I’m not complaining about it.
We also watched a couple of episodes of Fairy Tail. I’m still on defense on this one. It seems fun, but I’m not invested in it yet. Artwork reminds me of some other animes. We’ll see, if my hun wants to watch it, I’ll watch it.
Then we just watched a bunch of House episodes. I cannot believe House and Stacy tried to rekindle their relationship. I really think that House and Cuddy should be together. I feel like they would make a couple. I love Wilson. He is such the perfect work hubby for House. I’m still PMS-ing so I was triggered by Foreman this time. I think everything he did in all of the episodes tonight annoyed the crap out of me.
Planning on reading a bit before I sleep today. I have not been able to read in a couple of days I think. So I kind of want to read a bit. But yeah, tomorrow might be busy. Planning on shaving Paco a little bit before giving him a bath. Phoebe also needs a bath. Baths might happen on Sunday though.
I am not looking for another job or anything like that. But if an opportunity comes knocking on my door, I take a peek and see if it could be a right fit.
I interviewed recently for a biotech company for a supervisory position for their clinical trial group. I knew the company was looking to hire for that position, but I never applied. Because when it all comes down to it, I want to move away from lab work. Then their recruiter called. I got more information about the position from him, talked to the hiring manager, and got more information about it. It was not exactly what I was looking for, but it’s a remote position. It’s technically a step away from lab work. So I say why not? I didn’t get that job. And that’s okay. I was told that they would keep my info so if something opens up closer to my experience, they’ll give me a call. It’s okay though. I’m surprisingly fine about it. I wish I could say I’m disappointed, I’m not. I’m neutral about it at best, to be honest. I guess if I actually actively applied for that job, maybe I’ll have a different reaction.
So here I am minding my own business when I received another message from another recruiter…from a pathology lab this time. Again, looking for a supervisor. I talked to her this morning, and the opportunity seems promising. The compensation is decent. Downside – it’s about an hour from where I live. With the commute in this city makes the little increase from what I’m getting now makes the opportunity not worth it. Another one is the fact that this is another lab position. You know, the one that I’m trying to get away from. And third, what kind of challenge this lab can really give me when I’ve been doing the same line of job for more than 10 years?
I don’t know. The recruiter just sent me a message through LinkedIn. She wants me to meet the lab manager. And I’m honestly still trying to form the words in my head on how to say thanks but sorry.
Disclaimer: This will be a short post. Like really short.
I’m feeling a bit off. And my brain seems like its telling me that it wants to shut down. I think I’m kind of tired of being in meetings. Everyday meetings. It’s very exhausting. My brain feels empty at the moment.
The only time that I felt alive today was when I was watching some House episodes with my love. Cameron was annoying me in the last episodes. I feel like she was very judgmental on that one episode. And kept complaining why she wasn’t even asked if she wanted to lead the diagnostics team. First off, I understand that we are all human and we all pass judgment, but damn she was just very righteous in that one episode with the cyclist. It was grating on my nerves. Then the last episode, what does she really think Cuddy will do? Ask her to lead a team where she went on a date with her boss, and slept with another member of that team… Really? It’s not because you’re a woman Cameron, but your judgment is kind of questionable.
Also, I’m PMS-ing and I think I’m going to nitpick at anything right now. And I guess today, I nitpick at Cameron.
I mean, I think I’ve been pretty open about my hate for mornings. And what I hate even more about mornings? Having to be at work an hour earlier because people decided that a meeting should be scheduled that early. I hate going to the office knowing that I would need to be in a meeting minutes after I turn off the security alarm. And that’s a normal day! This morning was rough. And tomorrow morning will be rough as well.
I was tired most of the day. Tomorrow, I will need to stop by to get coffee.
I went to the MD after work today. It was just a check up with my allergy/asthma doctor. I did tell her that my allergies have been really flaring up lately…And she said she was not surprised. My environmental allergies. She said tree pollen is bad right now. She also said, that my biggest environmental allergens are dog and cat dander. And then she asked if I have dogs. Of course I do! She just told me to keep the dogs away from my face. I just smiled. Because that may be a bit difficult.
My hun and I watched Leap Year with Amy Adams and Matthew Goode. It was charming. And my love said that I like my cheesy rom coms. And I was like, yes I do! We then watched another episode of Bob’s Burgers. We just finished season 11 episode 4. We are catching up albeit slowly. I think there are only 12 seasons, so we almost there.
I’m planning on reading a bit before sleeping if I don’t pass out first. I feel like I might be too tired. My head is feeling heavy. But this book is very fast paced. I feel like there is always something happening to Forrest in every chapter.
Spoiler Alert
Forrest is now in space…With a male ape and a woman named Major Fritch.
End of Spoiler
I think that’s it for today.
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