Okay, I’m not technically starting over my life from scratch. Just my career. At my age, it’s not really ideal to start over anything. I should be in a more stable stage in my life. But of course, I am not there yet. And it took a while before I even realized what I really wanted to do with my life.

I envied people who knew what they wanted to be and what they wanted to do at such an early age. Because I was never that person. For the most part, I was coasting through life. I never had such an intense passion for something. Sure, I debated some career avenues mainly in healthcare. But a few years ago, I realized that I didn’t want to be wearing a lab coat anymore. When I was a kid, I always wanted to wear business clothes and have my own office. I cannot tell you why I never pursued that. Oh yeah, parents and their nonstop hounding of healthcare is the way-to-go kind of thing.

I entered my unemployed era at the end of Q1 this year. And I have been stuck with job hunting. I could pretend and say that I have been cool as a cucumber after being laid off. But no. Far from it really. I had days when anxiety and desperation got the best of me. I mean, can you blame me? I have no idea how long I could afford not to have a job. So far, I’ve done well.

Don’t get me wrong, I have been applying to roles. But it’s a bit tougher than I anticipated. And with this whole career transition thing, it’s a bit more difficult to even get an interview. Boy, the competition is fierce. I know that it might be easier if I apply to roles that are more lab-related, I mean that makes sense. But honestly, I don’t want to be stuck again. There’s a reason why I gained skills that could take me out of that environment. Also, a lot of lab-related roles right now, I’m overqualified for. Or lab roles that need some extra certifications, which I am not interested in getting. Because again, I want to get out of that field. If I am getting extra certifications, it will be for roles that will get me out of the lab. And yes, I am working on some. Well, I need to get back to studying and reviewing. I have been neglecting that for a bit.

It just sucks starting on a clean slate. As I said, I should be stable now. But of course not. And I need to be okay with that. Again, I was never one of those people who knew what they wanted to do when I was younger. And that is okay. It’s okay that I found what I like to do this late in the game. Now, it really is just a matter of pursuing it at this point. I feel like I procrastinated enough all my life already.