I always find myself in this state. The state of not wanting to do anything. I will call it laziness because it might be that. Or it could be my depression. Either way, I don’t want to do anything. However, I often find myself being forced to do shit. And I hate it. I just want not to move sometimes. Just be in bed and sleep. Or not. Whatever. As long as it results in me not doing anything.

With that rant out of the way, I did have to do some stuff today. I threw away the trash. Did laundry. Washed dishes. Applied for a job. Yeah. You know, adult things. And now, I’m exhausted. And I barely even did anything at all. I actually do need to go back to reorganizing the apartment again. So maybe tomorrow, I could squeeze in reorganizing the shoe rack and my reusable bags. I mean, the dogs are feeling a lot better, not 100% but they are getting there so I should be able to make little noises here and there in the apartment without disturbing them too much, especially the grouchy Phoebe.

Something adorable: she fell asleep while sitting on the pads that I laid out for them in the apartment. I heard her walking around and around the pads and suddenly I heard silence. I found her sleeping! Obviously, I moved her to the bed. And like the feisty one that she is, she was upset with me for waking her up.

Damn, I just felt like shit the whole day. I was falling asleep on my chair. Of course, that was not anything new, but I just don’t like it. Coffee really didn’t do anything at all. Which was unfortunate. I mean, sure, I didn’t really want to do anything today but I also did not sign up to be tired enough to fall asleep on my chair.

Anyway, I got to read a little bit before hanging out with my boyfriend. I have two chapters left on Lord of the Flies. Well, this book just got crazier. I mean, yeah. I am still wrapping my head around what just happened. However, my boyfriend and I got to watch some episodes of High Card and Bungo Stray Dogs.

Bungo Stray Dogs. This anime got dark. Finally got to see more of Akiko Yosano and her ability “Thou Shall Not Die”. I mean, I love her. I love crazy characters. Atsushi finally was able to tap into his ability. I guess a little bit of character development for him, considering finding his drive (proving that he is worthy to live) enabled him to touch that uncontrolled ability of his. I love that he was able to transform into a white tiger in segments and not go full weretiger. And we also met Kyoka Izumi! That last panel of her showing emotion and tearing up saying she does not want to kill anymore was heartbreaking.

High Card. Damn, I thought there would not be a character in here that could potentially annoy me. And yes there was! I cannot believe it. Her name is Sugar. Just the name makes me cringe. Not sure if she would have redemption, but I’m okay without it. I just don’t want to see her face anymore. She messed up her first assignment because she just had to investigate the Pinochle group or else she would lose sleep. Really? Now the person that you were supposed to be protecting died. And you didn’t even realize that he was missing until the next day. Like seriously. Bleh.

Plans tonight? Most likely read more. Like I said, I have two more chapters left on Lord of the Flies, so I kind of want to get finish that tonight.