I’m feeling a bit meh at the moment. I’ve been staring at this screen and I am struggling to get some words out. You know? Like my brain is blank and there is really nothing in my head but blank space? This bothers me. Since my brain is pretty active. Always running. May it be full of nonsensical stuff like thinking about fried chicken or chocolate, or thinking about starting a project and practicing my data science skills so it can remain sharp.

But today, it’s just blank.

I am not going to say how I felt when I woke up, I’m pretty sure you can deduce how my waking hour went. I’m just feeling off today. Way off. I’m also very irritable. I was annoyed at anyone who talked to me. And I had to force some friendliness out of me. Normally, that is pretty easy for me since I had to pretend to be friendly and approachable all the time. But today, that was very difficult.

Right now, I have the movie She’s All That playing in the background. I think the next movie I will play is Austenland. When I’m feeling like this, I tend to turn to the familiars. My go-to’s. Something I know that I will enjoy, even if I do not put my full attention to it. Hoping that it will make mood slightly better.

Tomorrow, I will have to go to the store to get some stuff for the potluck on Friday. Thinking of just getting the frozen lasagna and cooking it. I highly debated if I wanted to cook spaghetti but I just didn’t feel like putting that much effort into it. So frozen lasagna it is.

Tomorrow is blue day in the lab. Not sure what to wear since my wardrobe consisted of mainly black…and maybe some gray. So I will have to rummage my closet to see. I’m pretty sure I have a blue somewhere.

Haven’t been able to pick up a book and just read too. Not sure what is wrong with me. I do not like forcing myself either. I tend to not enjoy a book if I force myself to read. I just want to lie down and drown myself with YouTube videos. You know, reading vlogs and reading journal videos. I’m not sure really. Even that feels like a chore today.

Hopefully tomorrow is better. Yeah right – I would need to make a quick presentation about PPE (personal protective equipment) for lab people. Yay. Forced again to do something that I do not feel like doing. So pointless. They can read that in our SOP. Oh well.